What do you see,
nurses?
What do you
see?
What are you
thinking
when you're
looking at me?
A crabby old
woman,
not very
wise,
uncertain of
habit,
with faraway
eyes?
Who dribbles her
food
and makes no
reply
when you say in a
loud voice,
"I do wish
you'd try!"
Who seems not to
notice
the things that you
do,
and forever is
losing
a stocking or a
shoe?
Who, resisting or
not,
lets you do as you
will,
with bathing and
feeding,
the long day to
fill?
Is that what you're
thinking?
Is that what you
see?
Then open your eyes,
nurse,
you're not looking
at me.
I'll tell you who I am
as I
sit here so still,
As I
do at your bidding,
as I
eat at your will.
I'm a small child of
ten
with a father and
mother,
brothers and
sisters,
who love one
another.
A young girl of
sixteen
with wings on her
feet
dreaming that soon
now
a lover she'll
meet.
A bride soon at
twenty,
my heart gives a
leap,
remembering the
vows
that I promised to
keep.
At twenty-five
now,
I have young of my
own,
who need me to guide
them
and make a happy
home.
A woman of
thirty,
my young now
grown fast,
bound to each
other
with ties that
should last.
At forty, my young
sons
have grown and are
gone,
but my man's beside
me
to see I don't
mourn.
At fifty once
more,
Babies play round
my knee,
Again we know
children,
my loved one
and me.
Dark days are upon
me,
My husband is
dead
I look at the
future
I shudder with
dread.
For my young are all
rearing
young of their
own,
and I think of the
years
and the love that
I've known.
I'm now an old
woman
and nature is
cruel;
'Tis jest to make
old age
look like a
fool.
The body, it
crumbles,
Grace and vigor
depart,
There is now a
stone
where I once had a
heart.
But inside this old
carcass
A young girl
still dwells,
and now and
again,
My battered heart
swells.
I remember the
joys,
I remember the
pain,
And I'm loving and
living
Life over
again.
I think of the
years
all too few, gone
too fast,
and accept the
stark fact
That nothing
can last.
So open your eyes,
people,
Open and
see,
Not a crabby old
woman;
Look closer . . . see
ME.
